Time flies...

erm..stil remember half year ago..found his name ..found tis perfect guy fb.

now ald half year..saw he jus celebrate aniversary wit his gf..time reali flies..

suddenly feel tat..how gd isit..if got a guy love me like i do...

everyday missing each other..write sweet words to each other wall..

a guy let u feel tat he won let you go..no matter wat happened....he giv u a feel tat he wil lov you until the day he die..a honest guy...

although those feeling and words is reali sucks after u break up...

whn in a relationship hav to b serious...not play play..but sometimes..v cant b so naive...whn u cant sure he or she is the last person to u..dun giv everything...at the end..jus U crying alone in the night....feel hurt thn dying...

obsession...

seems like...i abandon my blog long time ago...

i dun hav the mood to write..and mayb i m lazy...

act...i feel very very tired..not those physically tired..

something cal tired in"heart".....seriously..一个人撑真的很辛苦..

my parents thought i m mature enough to handle everythings..include problem..sadness..dissapointment..

but i m not..i m jus a normal gal ,a very very simple gal..i need ppl encourage too.not jus me..everyone need encouragement.

"nvm,i 'll be there for you."...like tis encouragement.. is very precious..and valuble thn anythings for me...

last week i m reali very very down...

but i hav no one to talk too....i m not mean tat i hav no true frens..

but no one is with me...study break fren..enjoying...studying fren..hardworking-ing...at tat time i was blur..very very blur..转回头时,....发现原来.......没人在我身边.

i jus wish someone to talk wit..but everyone is busy....i knw.i understand..everyone hav their lif.e.i cant demand ppl always beside me one..

after i work..i learn lot of things...i try smth i never try b4..

like..i was very sad..and abt to cry on the spot..but i m facing my comp doing things.boss and colleague all beside me..

wat to do??jus act like nth..like normal..is reali very 难受...

wan cry but cant..feel headache..but need to continue work..to talk fun wit my colleague..stil hav to face my boss wit fake smile..

last time..i headache..i jus bk home or hostel..i won let myself in so suffer situation..if i wan to cry..i jus cry out..like wat i did in my pre-u life..( i mean in hostel la)

and recently..lot lot and alot of problems comes to me..i m reali sucks in handle problem..i mean problemsss...i can b very frustrated compare to anyone..

but at the begining..i sure wil cant tahan..and feel exhausted ..for sure..coz everytime..my parents leave me alone..

i m tired ..reali very tired..i dun like tis kind of life...i hate ppl tot tat i m very matured!!i hate tis...!!i need ppl giv comment me also..i need ppl help also~!..i hav feelings too.i dun wan fake life...i dun wan alone..i dun wan lonely feel...i wan bk my happy life~!

my parents...sucks..i knw they very pressure..working.... earn money....

so fine...i m not going to blame them..i jus release my feelings onli...

hey mum,although i didnt 撒娇 to u..since i 13 years old...but i m stil  a gal tat need ppl care ok~a daughter tat need mum's love....i m always the one tat tel u dun worry..but i myself worry thn u and dad..


i knw she won saw wat i write..jus syok onli la~~release the words frm my heart..

sometimes i do blame the god..why ..why ...put me in tis tradisional family..need to overcome sadness tat others ppl do not hav.......b a gal in tis family...need to b very strong..i mean very very..in order to protect myself......

but thank god too..i saw lot wonderful things in tis world..and i reali enjoy lot too..

Saturday

2day i stay home whole day..

suppose happy....work so hard for 5 days..jus wait sat and sun.

but 2day weird weird one.

stay home alone for whole day...do nth..jus relax...

haiz...like my heart gt something...dun knw is wat..jus feel tat is not happy..

feel so weird...

am i bored?am i sad?am i ................

no idea reali.

come on.....i dun like tis feelings...

gonna enjoy 99 tis weekend.

changes

i feel tat..i changed alot..

ppl wil try to adapt him or herself to enviroment.

lot ppl tel me tat i m ...
"冷峻孤傲"..reali?

mayb i less talk.

my mum also said tat..i start no complain..coz i hav no choice..so i try very hard to get used to it.

i dun talk much.dun smile,no facial expression.

i knw tats reali nt good...looks rude.

i wil try to change it.

but im glad i hav few real frens in office.v wil talk alot while lunch time.abt unhappy things..boss complain...customer things.

so i feel tat..at least..at least some 1 wit me..listen to me..whn i receive somethings unfair...

i long time no go out wit frens d.but stil happy tat..one of my fren stil wil come out whn i told tat i m bored,or i wan to eat something.

i admit tat i m mad..i like to do things sudenly...just follow my thought.coz tat me~!!^^

although v wil hav hard time..but do make urself happy...tats reali important..its make u become more strong to continue ur path.

Hate it

reali hate it ...

whn u dun wan cal ur fren out...they say suan liao..4 get me d.

if call...wil ans"sry,currently reali busy"

i think i won call ppl out again.feel fed-up..

...---F**K you!!

Best friend

actually..wats the defination of best fren??

for  me ,best fren is someone who is very very important to me.

had  good and bad times together..and whatever happened.. wil right beside each other.

even not beside each other,wil giv encouragement to each other.

even though ..busy wit our own things..but stil keep in touch..

whnever meet..stil can burst out laughing..

frenss hav very important place in my heart..important thn my boyfriend.tats truth.

i cant even sure i can love him 4ever.and ofcourse i never promise to my bf those "rubbish".

ppl wil said...bf is much more important..bullshit..one of my fren said..whn break up..who wil  beside u?ofcourse is frena and family.

so pls,dun too sure tat ur bf wil right beside you 4ever.

world is changing..everythings might change.nothing is impossible.

back to best frens topic ...

whn...i get to knw tat...my best fren keep something frm me..but everyone knw tat long time ago..tats reali hurt me.

i knw...she mayb scare i cant accept it.coz she knws me well.

but tats reali hurt..everyone knws tat..but ur best fren -me....dun even knw tat....

such a fool u knw..

frm tat seconds start..dun knw why..i  m like...quite dissapointed wit her.

*Angel*

recently...a ppl  like angel..

he s appeared whenever i need ppl help..

seriously..i m sooo suprise..

2day whn evening,i reali feel so tired d..coz lotss things to do..if didnt finish i cant go bk..

my heart thinking tat..how great..if i hav  a cup of hot tea...

and he reali giv me hot tea.

thn whn i reach ground floor ..saw tats heavy rain outside...although i fast enough to finish my job..no use..stil tak sempat..

thn i was standing outside of my building..observing isit gt bus..if gt i hav to run to across the road..(i hav no umbrella)

suddenly..tis ppl came behind me..wit a umbrella..

thn he talk lot wit me..thn i tumpang his umbrella..

wow he is a good guy..good personalities..reali like a man..gentlemen..

wonder if in my future..can meet some1 like tis..i think tats the most lucky things in my life

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