seems like...i abandon my blog long time ago...
i dun hav the mood to write..and mayb i m lazy...
act...i feel very very tired..not those physically tired..
something cal tired in"heart".....seriously..一个人撑真的很辛苦..
my parents thought i m mature enough to handle everythings..include problem..sadness..dissapointment..
but i m not..i m jus a normal gal ,a very very simple gal..i need ppl encourage too.not jus me..everyone need encouragement.
"nvm,i 'll be there for you."...like tis encouragement.. is very precious..and valuble thn anythings for me...
last week i m reali very very down...
but i hav no one to talk too....i m not mean tat i hav no true frens..
but no one is with me...study break fren..enjoying...studying fren..hardworking-ing...at tat time i was blur..very very blur..转回头时,....发现原来.......没人在我身边.
i jus wish someone to talk wit..but everyone is busy....i knw.i understand..everyone hav their lif.e.i cant demand ppl always beside me one..
after i work..i learn lot of things...i try smth i never try b4..
like..i was very sad..and abt to cry on the spot..but i m facing my comp doing things.boss and colleague all beside me..
wat to do??jus act like nth..like normal..is reali very 难受...
wan cry but cant..feel headache..but need to continue work..to talk fun wit my colleague..stil hav to face my boss wit fake smile..
last time..i headache..i jus bk home or hostel..i won let myself in so suffer situation..if i wan to cry..i jus cry out..like wat i did in my pre-u life..( i mean in hostel la)
and recently..lot lot and alot of problems comes to me..i m reali sucks in handle problem..i mean problemsss...i can b very frustrated compare to anyone..
but at the begining..i sure wil cant tahan..and feel exhausted ..for sure..coz everytime..my parents leave me alone..
i m tired ..reali very tired..i dun like tis kind of life...i hate ppl tot tat i m very matured!!i hate tis...!!i need ppl giv comment me also..i need ppl help also~!..i hav feelings too.i dun wan fake life...i dun wan alone..i dun wan lonely feel...i wan bk my happy life~!
my parents...sucks..i knw they very pressure..working.... earn money....
so fine...i m not going to blame them..i jus release my feelings onli...
hey mum,although i didnt 撒娇 to u..since i 13 years old...but i m stil a gal tat need ppl care ok~a daughter tat need mum's love....i m always the one tat tel u dun worry..but i myself worry thn u and dad..
i knw she won saw wat i write..jus syok onli la~~release the words frm my heart..
sometimes i do blame the god..why ..why ...put me in tis tradisional family..need to overcome sadness tat others ppl do not hav.......b a gal in tis family...need to b very strong..i mean very very..in order to protect myself......
but thank god too..i saw lot wonderful things in tis world..and i reali enjoy lot too..