First time

few days ago..i  start to think alot of things...

i act work until end of jan...but i hope continue to work.

sometimes u knw..not everything u can chose..i hav no choice but to chose...

tats alot of obstacle..even need big boss meeting thn onli can let me stay.....big organisation..gt procedure..but my boss ,she s like ..i dun knw how to decribe..she wan me stay one year...i say yes coz..i stay almost 9 months

right after i say yes..agent call me..the language class start july..and is mon to fri..morning to afternoon.

now wat should i do???if i tel my boss i jus stay half year..i m sure i loss my job..

ppl sure ask...y i should stay there?i hav my reason.......

i hav to think in many way..not jus one side...erm.. lot documents need to prepare...even verified document.go another bank to hav a international acc...alot alot..

and tis and tat...all i need to handle myself...i m not complaining..overseas is my dream..i need to do it myself..my parents not helping me anyway..they r busy..

i jus hope some1 i can talk to...yea..everyone hav bf..they can relied on them..but i gt bundle of frens..but i m not in college ,secondary or wat..no frens beside me..cant like last time..gt wat problem..i wil jus tel them the next day..at least like tat i feel more relax..at least some1 wit me..some1 listen to me..

and my roommate not wit me anymore also..who i should talk to...secondary fren?....very very long time onli meet once..and all hav their love life...how about fren life?i reali dun knw..

i m facing comp to do work..but my brain is thinking my problem..i m headache...i m reali headache..1st time i headache  whole day..panadol  FAIL!

whn bk to home..some war is happened...brother argue wit my dad..thn my mum b the middle one...i m feel like..i m feel like whn i reach home no1 notice me is there..how sad am i...i feel reali reali lonely ..

i m not  like others gals..can manja manja wit mum..,,i m reali helpless u knw..i dun knw how to do..i dun knw find who to talk to.......parents wil tot ..i can solve myself..i m mature enough...but i can tel tat..i m not...i need some1 2 to relied on also..i m jus a normal gal..i need ppl care of me..i need dad and mum listen wat i say..

i m tired.....1st time..i knw money is important..all those clothes..winter one..tat prepare to go russia..i buy 4 myself..luggage bag..the university registiration fees..all i paid...i need to buy laptop somemore..

renew passport need money also....they not going to pay me bk..they say i ald work..i pay 4 myself....u knw those plus together is how much?jus the registiration fees is 3000k..

feel like i m not like a small gal anymore..can think of whn my lover wil appear infront of me..i m so sad because he didnt reply my msg...this kind of stuff...i need to earn 4 myself..earn 4 my study..alot pro add up is a critical problem.ppl wil say..local study thn u no need pressure..sry to say..the cheapest fees is 250 k=my russia fees,eat,hostel,and everthing.

the 1st years need to take loan....i m stil nt yet decide wat loan i should take..the interest is very very high..i told myself..after tis..i wil more appreciate wat i get...the 2nd years i wil get shcolarship...i hope i can do it..NO!..i must do it! my previous study life..is like leapk life..i didnt spend all my time study..i do regret..

seriously..i admire those ppl parents pay tuition fees 4 them..settlle evrything to them..even result not gd..nvm.. can retake ...even100 times..

diferent ppl hav different of life rite..jus can play ur role well in ur life.

i start to like tis blog..i can write watever i wan to say..happy..not happy...sad...dissapointed..angry..at least i no need wat aso keep it myself.