Alone

now i m alone at home..seriously i hate tis feel.

i m scare..i m realii scare..i  hate alone...ppl wil said"alone at home so good,can do wateve i wan".

but i alone at home ald 3 years..last time my bro stay hostel..and my grandpa and grandma move out.

everyday live in frighten mood..cant sleep well..even take a nap at afternoon.whn my dog barked..i hav to wake up immediately and take a look .

i hate my mum so much.she always go out wit my bro.thn left me at home.thn i go out wit my frens..thn she said i always go out..

jus now she said.."i ald teman u whole day isit not enough"...i feel so hurt u knw.....teman me watch drama..or talk wit me isit tat boring..last time i wan my grandparents to come bk..but tis house is not mine..i cant say anything.

whn i was young..my grandparents teman me always..eat,go school.sleep..do homework..last time sudenly i alone at home everyday until 10 p.m....i m reali feel uncomfortable...

seriously..i very very very admire my fren tat parents always wit them...admire their mum prepare lunch for them..whn bk frm school...admire their mum send them go and bk frm school.i so admire tis type of life...although i no chance to hav these...but next time i wil do my very very best for my children...

mayb ppl wil say i always complain..but i m not complaining...i jus say out wat i feel...words and thought frm my heart.

i always late bk home coz of OT...is reali tired no doubt..and i hav nt much time to do my own things..suft net...and others..and once i suft longer bit..i not enough time to sleep..thn whn work wil feel sleepy...

although i dun like tat late to bk home..but i wil feel great too...i at office..but not alone at home.

whn rain heavily..and thunder and gt lighting...i feel so comfortable at office...does not feel scare...and even chit chat wit my collegue how the raining..bla bla..

everything gt plus point..and ofcourse bad side too..


i like a phrase.."jus hang on,u 'll be there soon"...

frenss not beside me to cheer me up..thn i hav to cheer myself rite..haha~everyday also a great day.jus depends how u make ur day.