White christmas!!!

finally...i gt some time to write my blog..

currently i m soooo tired..everyday came bk late..due to ot la~and the stupid bus..

whn bk..i m gonna on9 4 while..no doubt..on9 is my entertainment..i 've been working 4 almost 10 hour..ofcourse i wan relax..

thn start pack things..

wow..winter....reali needs lotttt clothes..inside the 'wool' shirt..until the outside big jackte..need 4 layers..socks..the hand glove..the hat..shoes....lot things ..reali..

the travel agent jus called me said..now korea at nite -13 degree ..

it drive me crazy...so i keep pack and pack..bring as much as i can..but i 4get tat..gt limit 1..is 15 kg..so i hav to manage..and count how many piece of clothes i need..

i tis few days sms wit a fren..and i need to said tat..i reali hate ppl tst cal me abandon my study..means-going to russia..

 and he is the one la..even my ex-A-level fren..(some of u may knw who r the ppl)tis is my dream..i wil never ever giv up..

he keep said dun go la..isit i m a gal so u all tot tat i dun hav tis ability to go overseas study?

and isit said study 4 so long..thn later no bf or some others things..stop talking crap pls.."tat ppl" i m not reali closed to him..so pls dun keep cal me abandon my dream..i hate to hear tat.

keep called me change my plan..shut up la u!uwek~

i m going to continue pack my things lu~~airport gt so many rulessss~~haiz..

and one things i hav to mention here!i m reali so tao yan those peoplessss!..all heard me go korea..all call me buy tis and tat 4 their PRESENT (even not so closed one)..

present isit  I chose 4 them?if i reali wan to buy 4 them..%&*#@!*&@&^%^@*@&

at last..merry christmas yea everyone~~~~~!!^.^

Nightmare~!

yesterday nite i had a nightmare..omg..guess wat i dream?

i jus remember abit..about my boss...walao..whn i sleep she also dun wan lepas me..tel me canot go korea..

haiz..mayb i reali feel worried abt tis.tats y ..

act nth much to worry..i 2day discuss wit my fren-another manager..i didnt under her..so is ok..she love korean thingS..u knw..haha..and she also coment me tat resign..jus prepare letter.i m temporary staff..even jus call and said resign also can one she said.

2day i went to see my big boss-head of dept.her face reali fierce.(naturally i mean)..but thn she said she need to dicuss wit her team..see the 5 days i m not here ,wats the impact 1st..wil tel me ans monday
..she even ask me the travel fees..i explain alot..i said i reali no choice..i didnt expect i wil get extend.i said i 31st wil come bk to help u all..although i midnite reach airport..thn wil b quite tired..tats wat i can do..if she reali dun wan approve..resign is the onli way.

act i resign is ok one..my parents also said nvm,is ok one.i also nt tat pity until wan earn 4 my life ma.act i jus left one month there onli..i jus hope can finish my contract ...

my mum said those resign ppl wil giv margina grade,,means bad!coz must gt ppl get bad grade..so push those resign temp staff go die....and my mum work in bank ..imposible i like tat..later every1 gossip tat her daughter attitute sucks..my mum also kena involve..

but if reali reali no choice..hav to la..hav to resign.nth is tis world is perfect..tats wat my fren told me.


i 2day suddenly think of my grandpa..my mum 2day see me stil like nt so happy..thn said"dun sad la..u see(she giv me grandpa pic),grandpa cal u dun sad..must smile..he s talking to u..can u feel tat?"..i m like reali can feel it..is like..he s still here..but he leave me almost 2 weeks ald....i miss him very very much.

.i m sure office ppl sure tot i m not so closed wit my grandpa..coz i m jus like normal..whn ppl ask about him..i m jus ans like normal..is very hard to pura u knw..coz i m scare i wil cry out..
 



oh ya..friday again yeah~~~i plan lot things tis weekend..

go out wit frens..take christmas pic..go sing k(mayb)..watch movie..go shooping wit daddy and mummy..to buy my oversea study de winter clothes,bag...breakfast wit grandma.and gonna discuss wit fren,wat to bring to korea..thn .pack my things thn put in my luggage,..at last..yam cha at sun nite wit primary fren..wow..reali soo happy..my weekend always so great..compare to mon-fri.(sien)~



yx..put me aeroplane la u~~no celebrate dao birthday wit vincent..dun knw he wil unhappy or not o..coz last year v didnt celebrate 4 him d le~

ipoh trip jan on la weh..hav to double comfrim wit tah er..

The shit boss

2day reali a bad day..i had a bad day..

2day i told my boss i 24th dec going to korea..i m reali sry.. i knw i m late to tel u tat..

coz everyone knw tat korea having a war rite?..

thn now the agent comfrim can go d..coz didnt receieve warning frm korea goverment..

so i told my boss..at 1st she like okok one..said take unpay leave need to inform HR dept.

 so everthing ... smooth...

suddenly..the another side boss start become gila..said tat side lack of ppl..bla bla bla..(coz i m helping 2 section.so 2 boss)

thn my boss also become gila..thn i ask her how about my unpay leave..she start  lecture me...talk about 20 mins u knw..

she said the another side lack of ppl..all ppl year end take leave..and i wan take unpay leave jus to enjoy my holiday..said wat 4 the bank wan me...bank wan contract staff is to cover all the ppl..walao..she reali talk til i m not human like tat..i jus keep quite..i tahan dia..

thn she start said alotttt..say i should not like tat..work at a big organisation..wil make my record bad if  take unpay leave..halo..i m not going to work as a bank staff or office lady 4ever ok!~

my dream definitely not related to office job!since i was young i hate office job..boring like hell..


she said wat if i m a manager..i also dun like tat my staff like tat..take unpay leave 4 holiday rite..

ok fine..i start to explain..i said"if i m u ,i also dun like my staff like tat..but thn i decide to go korea b4 i come in tis bank to work..i even pay the travel fees at september already..and i didnt expect tat u all wil extend me..so i put all my trip at year end..my contract end at 1st of nov one.."

thn she ask me"wat if HR dun giv u go?asuming u cant take unpay leave..so how?"

i jus straight away say..i ald paid..ofcourse i go la..

after a while she told me need ask the head of dept 2moro..

wat if they reali dun let me take unpay leave..thn i jus resign..wat to do?i hav no choice..if not u cal me work there help them and thn waste my rm3000+?

i reali understand her and her situation..but reali sry ..go korea is my dream since form 3..and tis is my last chance to go korea,i m leaving malaysia next year..and important things is wat so big deal.without me the bank won bankrup..

but she like make everythings become very big deal~

she reali affect my mood 2day..and my face reali show out wat i feel.
thanks to the another side section officer..he sense tat i feel unhappy and sad d..thn he try to discuss wit me..and help me settle my nov leave..thanks alot yea!although i knw he won see tis..

u knw wat he said..he said "yein,u r too innocent la"...(i knw i m reali soo stupid)coz i officialy go on tel i take unpay leave..need go travel..nov penang trip i also take 1 day unpay..coz temp jus gt  2 days leave..

normally..those staff in bank..TOOK MC one..no ppl so stupid go on potong sendiri punya gaji..and let boss scold..type letter to HR somemore..MC not tat complicated..and can shut the boss mouth up rite.

and thanks to my malay fren..he reali like my big brother..whn i tel him i m reali sad..thn he try to sms wit me..thn he bring to mcd,treat me ice-cream to cheer me up..told me not to sad anymore..after eat tis ice cream..and jus dun peduli my boss..thankyou so much my big brother..i reali feel touch~

oh ya,2day is my tvxq dear kim junsu birthday!!hope he wil happy always.. i wil smile 4 u..my dear junsu~^.^

Work..

nowadays..i feel the clock abit gila..coz it jalan so slow..

i gazing at the clock after lunch..2.00...3.00...4.00...5.00..thn 6.00..onli can bk..haiz..

very suffer lo...everyday face computer..my boss 2day gila somemore..coz of the volume very high and some of them cant finish..

get loss la ..always bla bla bla..so annoying..and my boss dun knw our section job is soooo boring..she dun let ppl talk somemore..wtf!

reali like a doll u knw..those ppl tat sit around her..canot talk much..laugh tat loud..even listening to music..but i m temporary staff....i jus listen..i dun care!~

2day my head like weird weird ..like sleepy..like headache..dun knw..i also not sure..

thn i feel like wan to drink hot drinks..like hot choc~..i think of the coffe bean..coz  my office downstairs gt a shop one..

and a malay guy fren..my officemate belanja me..haha..since they all get bonus lo..i m a temp..dun hav..yer~

but thn i can said tat ..the hot choc..at 1st is very nice..bt thn...walao..is reali like hot double milk..not hot double choc..

omg..i was like..huh?apa ni~

after i finish tat...my mouth stil gt the milk milk feel lo..

and i keep complain to my mum.(im gd in complaining)haha

anyway..reali thankyou very much 4 the hot double choc..whn i demand..he terus said jom!..i tot he jus kd..thanks ya anyway~although not tat nice..but thn is HOT drinks..so i feel my head become ok bit d..

actually tis job sucks..bt thn salary best..but thn reali hard tahan..the time reali WALK so slow..and i feel like going to smash the comp la..haiz.everyday make me headache.

i borrow cable frm my fren d..my thn dun knw why my stupid phone canot use..SH*T...make me lot photo stuck at my phone..

next week fri going to korea lu~~but thn i haven prepare my things..my fren ald pack all the things lo..yor...reali so sry la..i weekdays reali tired..whn i reach home..i jus hope to catch time to on9..coz i ald waste 10 hour in office..

Life

actually..life..precious or not?

for me..definitely yes..

although sometimes v do feel dissapointed,sad,no mood,emo...

but life s go on rite?

i m chatting wit yx-my roommate..jus knw tat her  uncle suddenly passed away..reali suddenly..

after i heard tat..i reali feel like..life is jus like a dream or u can say life is like movie..

got sad things..gt good things..but a movie sure gt ending rite..

but for sure ,v dun knw whn is our ending..

but u think it another way..life can b a suprise ..coz u wil never knw wat s going to happened in the next day..

mayb v 2moro wil leave tis world..mayb next year..mayb 10 years later ..or 20 years later..v wil never knw..
 

but if v appreciate every morning,every nite,every hour,min,sec...life can b wonderful..

do somethings tat u like..help ppl tat needs our help..treat ppl tat around u gd..sayang ur family..whn is the time to  leave tis world..i think tats no regret ...4 me.coz i did my best to do the things i wan to do..full fill my empty space in my life.coloured my life wit wonderful colour..


some ppl hope can live longer abit in tis world..coz they feel stil gt lot things haven do..

some ppl..hate tis world..commit suicide to ..erm..mayb shorten their pain?

hope everyone wil appreciate their life..to full fill ALL dream in our heart
..

tis one abit serious ho?jus my thought la..
every morning wake up..jus think tat"is a new day!!"..and smile ..it reali wil brighten up ur day~^.^

1 week...

grandpa leave me ald 1 week..but i stil feel like going to visit him on sunday..tis few days i went and put 'colok' 4 him also.no why..jus i miss him..stil hope i can accompany him.although jus picture..i can feel tat he s wit me.i wil b happy everyday....he wil like to see me smile..>>^^he dun like i cry or show sad face.


2day my mum took a newspaper and read 4 me..a news about a fb guy commit suicide.and my mum even called me to search in fb to show her the guy's gf.

my mum start lecture me..said..young ppl like us..like to "play fire"...tot relationship is a joke..and she even said guy's heart is very soft and weak..tel me tat GALS..should not play their heart.haiz....relationship things..who can judge tat who s right and wrong?



i cant denied tat ..the guy is handsome..korean guy style.. u knw...(my mum said tat also)
but too bad.. he dun appreciate his life...
now young generation relationship is like.......easy come easy go style....jus see how u manage ur relationship..


if his gf dun lov him anymore..thn he lagi wan to lov himself  more!
v should appreciate ourself..every1 also playing a important role in their life..no doubt..every1 also the main character in their life..

v wil sad..wil dissapointed whn v break up..but do stand up...v hav to b strong..there is different obstacle waiting 4 us ..tats not onli love things in life ok...
u hav ur family,frens,relative..even dream...alot alot....

hope he r.i.p...hope he wil appreciate himself in the next life..

oh ya..i found tis in yx blog...................

soooo cute man~~~
but yx...apa la u~~suddenly think of  strawberry pula~hahaha..

Grandpa..

5th december is a day tat i wil never ever 4get..this day is the grandpa tat i sayang the most...leave me..at 1st,i reali cant accept it..

after funeral things set up..i stay there for 2 nites..to accompany him.whn he alive he love to see me and my brother to visit him..teman him.he always tel me come early to teman him.at there 2 nites..i slept 2 hour  per day..u knw tat..i reali wish tat whn i wake up..somebody tel me tat it was jus a dream..jus a joke..tats not real..

no matter how hard i try to denied it..i cant change it..i screwed up..i cant hear my grandpa call me anymore.

i reali very sad..very very..i dun knw how to say..i jus hope everything is fake..i hope every saturday and sunday i stil can go accompany him.

but i glad tat sat nite i gt visit him..me and my brother chat alot wit him..he stil cal me sun come early..to accompany him..stil cal  me to buy something tat he likes 4 him..

sunday...afternoon he gone...whn received called..my mum shocked and she started to cry..and v rushed there..


whn i saw my grandpa..i knw he gone..i reali canot control my tears....how can i accept it??the nite b4 tis..he stil chit chat wit me..laugh happily wit me..feed him eat..and he even lectured my brother..

i knw i cant denied it anymore..my grandpa ald gone...i need to comfort my mum..so i cant cry too over..if not she wil feel more sad..and my brother also..so i cry in the room..cry and cry..even cry everytime i wake up..coz i cant change tis..tis is real..i can do nothing..


i reali dun wish tat my grandpa wil leave me..he is the one tat accompany me to grow up..but i think and think...i jus hope my grandpa wil happy..wil not suffer..and grandpa hav a kind heart..always help ppl..and wil not count he rugi or not..so i hope god wil take care tis kind ppl-my grandpa.

i teman him 2 nites..while he  s in coffin..i talk alot wit him...

and i m thankful to those ppl tat came my grandpa funeral..and pay their last respect..my uncle ,aunty ,cousin frens,and their officemate..usually ppl wil pantang....chinese wat....wat to do?i reali need to say thankyou..reali thankyou...and all the relatives came also..make my grandpa funeral meriah..i can feel tat  my grandpa wil feel happy tat every1 came to see him..

and i need to say thankyou to all my frens..yunxian,yi chyn,mun,nee,my office fren..afiqah,adam,rafiq...and others..

thankyou 4 u all msg..although jus take k ..those simple words..but tats reali more thn enough..thanks...

whn i bk office..ppl also speechless..they scare they wil say wrong things..so they like ask me how r u..r u ok...alhought i hav no mood,but i hav to smile..tats simple manners..

i dun wish tat my grandpa wil leave me..i hope he wil 4ever wit me..but i cant b selfish..he s suffering..so  i hope he wil happy..and not suffer..so i wil keep remind myself..my grandpa happy,thn i wil b happy~

i wrote a letter in my diary which is tis...

To Dearest grandpa(gong gong):
                                                i reali hope to knw where r u now..but i reali hav no idea..hope gong gong wil tel me u r fine now..and u live in heaven happily..i miss u so much...although i cant see u anymore..cant listen u call me "ah yan"...cant see ur cute smile..which is like micky mouse..but u do live in my heart 4 ever..no one can replace u..



                 you 're the one tat take care of me since i was young,
                 you're the one tat make milo for me every early morning b4 school,
                 you're the one tat prepare bread wit butter for me to bring school,
                 you're the one tat accompany me to wait bus sekolah every earlymorning,
                 you 're the one tat always b my driver,send me go and bk frm pianoclass,
                 you're the one tat always cal me take care(even the day b4 u leave),
                 you're the one tat always tahan me,although sometimes i talk wit u impatiently,
                 you're the one tat lecture me leng zai no use,important is hav gd personalities,
                 you 're the one tat always tel me nvm,dun count 2 much..so wil not hav enemy,
                 you're the one tat always refused to take my money,call me keep myself.
                 you're the one tat always tel me dun panic,steady and perform well in exam.

i love to tel u tat i m scared..b4 i go school exam,piano exam,and competition in primary school.coz i hope to get encourage words frm u.
                                            




u left alot of memories to me..i hav more memories on u and grandma..compare to my parents..tis is real one.coz u 2 are the one tat take care of me since i was young..

i wil help u to take care grandma,so dun worry about tat.i knw my studies not the best among ur grandsons and daughters.but i wil try my best to become the best.apply things tat u teach me in my life.hope u wil watch me in heaven....

i do promise u b4 tat i wil bcome a great doctor.and tis wil never ever change.

i knw gong gong sayang me alot..and ofcourse me too..even more thn tat...miss u always.
                                                                                                                                     from ur beloved
                                                                                                                                       granddaughter
                                                                                                                                              ah  yan

WoW...midnite now...

now is 01.30 a.m..actually i really didnt aware of it..i tot stil 11.00+ p.m..

is a new day again~~yeah~

i m stil planing my timetable now..too many things need to do..until i miss out something.coz i jus hav 2 days,which weekend..reali not enough lo!

jus now my mum told me tat i should read more ENGLISH newspaper ..coz can improve my english..(my english reali bad..even grammar also not gd enough)..ok mum,i wil read more story books instead of newspaper..newspaper seems boring~+.+




i m overwhelmed by tiredness now....nth is better thn sleep on my lovely bed..wit my lovely bear~^.^..p.s/yx!my bear now become clean jor..not dirty and koyak-koyak d.~haha~

A guy tat impressed me

oh ya..jus to share something..last week..i went lunch wit my office frens..while waiting to cross the road..i saw a foreign guy..which is opposite me..he reali looks great..muscle..and all..HEY,i m not trying to tel tat i saw a handsome guy..do see finish wat i wan to say..



whn the light turns green..thn everyone crossed the road..bt thn i saw him didnt crosse the road...i wondered why..after tat i saw tat..he gived rm5 to a old,messy indian old man..which sit at the corner..after tat..the old man..keep say thankyou ,thankyou to him..and the old uncle looks reali soo happy and thankful..after tat the guy crossed road..and look bk to see the old uncle..


tat old uncle expression..i stil remember...tat foreign guy reali impressed me..reali......coz lot malaysian there..bt thn they all dun even bother the uncle..
4 some ppl..rm 5  is a very small amount..bt for the uncle..is everything..coz of the money,he can eat..and won suffer coz of hungry .




the foreign guy hav a kind heart..i like tis kind of guy.
i m sure everyone sure experience tat ppl come and sell kuih-kuih or biscuit..or other things rite?4 me last time i won buy...but my mum and dad lecture me...said tat.."do u understand those feelings tat..stand there whole day..but u didnt get any1 to buy ur things?u knw how dissapointed isit?and u knw tat how happy isit if they get customer?even 1 customer?"


i quite tat time..coz i didnt experience tat b4..thn my dad said"those things v can eat also ..and jus few ringgit..jus bought it..v can eat..and ppl wil feel happy..isn't great?"


and i aso sure tat everyone try b4 tat those uncle aunty come and cal u to donate rite?all ppl wil say.."tis one cheat ppl one..dun donate..and they even can b richer thn us" i told tis to my parents..even my elder brother..my mum and dad ask me..wat if they r real 1?they reali need the money to save ppl?or need the money 4 food?even cheat jus 1 or 2 ringgit ma'"...i think 1 or 2 ringgit not a problem for me and others too..gals wil pay 70 or 80 ringgit jus to buy a T-shirt(not me^^)..guy wil pay 60 +bucks to cut a "mordern "hair style..but whn come to 1 ringgit..they bcome selfish..


everyone do hav a kind heart..and caring heart..whn u feel happy jus share to the ppl tat around u..^.^even a smile..u can let ppl feel warm.

My Korea Trip

last week i saw news tat south korea going to hav war wit north korea..tis.......reali is an astonish news....to me..more thn 10 person ask me tis ques"eh,north korea going to fight wit south korea u knw?u stil wan to go there?"



yes ,definitely going!~


if reali reali..have war..thn no choice bt to cancel ..bt i payed deposite..wan  me to  cancel..and waste my money..thn i can say  .."NO WAY"!
actually i jus came bk frm the travel agent...and me and my fren pay all d..and get a gd news is..if reali canot make it..thn can  full refund~wow..tats a great news 4 me..my fren and i feel relieved~~~~~


wat if go there onli fight?i cant do anything rite..tats fate~
actually alot of ppl tot me and my fren was jus kidding..coz since form 3 or 4..v start said tat..v wil together go korea..coz v both r korea fans~others was like..korea?reali?u two onli?their eyes ald showed tat.."impossible tis 2 ppl can make it'..coz need money..and v jus secondary student..

but i wan to shout out loud at here..v both will go korea this December!!Hurrrray~~~~~

don't ever tot tat i m a "cakap kosong" ppl..
and reali need to say thankyou to my fren..kahyen..v both always remind each other..need to jimat abit..v must go korea..~seriously ,i feel so happy.!!!...she didnt lie to me..v did it!!wahahaha..

i m reali sooo happy..coz tis is my 3 years++ dream..and my wish..b4 i go russia study for 6 years..


i knw once i start study i hav no chance to go..don't talk crap tat after study stil can go..tat time ald 27..moreover  i hope to study specialist.."after study stil can go"..nonsense..especially my aunty..she like.. hope i fail to go korea..keep bla bla bla..if i need wait after study onli can go..means 30+ years old d..thn i hav to admit tat i m a lousy ppl..tat rm3000 also need use 10 years to earn..




















tis place i like so much..the drama "winter sonata" place..looks romantic rite?hehe. i wil b there soon..wait me!hehe

i wan to upload some picture here..bt thn my cable is not function..yo..hate it lo!.

错的人

currently i love tis song soo much>错的人..the lyrics suit me ..

爱得太真 太容易让自己牺牲,

我太笨 明知道你是错的人,

明知道这不是缘分,

但是我还奋不顾身.


tis time i write clear abit..(due to yx demanded)..^^now onli knw wat mood is tat.. is "hen nan shi huai"..i  knw i did it wrong..starting tat time..i shouldn't b like tis..
thanks to yunxian also..she giv me lot comment..and kp remind me i m going to overseas..dun so crazy over him.actually..i ald 4get him..bt thn he kp appear infront of him..last time i prospect him to appear everyday..bt thn no chance to meet him.thn now no thanks...his shadow is abhorrent to me..after i saw wat he wrote on fb ..lagi hate..watever la....i hav my life..and u hav ur life.although u r a great guy..bt thn personalities i dun knw la~


i realli wish to meet my frens everyday u knw...i hav lot of things wan to tel them...thn laugh out loud wit them..after i work..like my life bcome stress..totally no life..like i married wit the office..sigh...



i hav no one to talk to(coz no roommate and college mate d)...so i decide to hav tis blog..i wil write all my thought here...thn i can chit chat wit my frens..i do miss all those old times wit my frens..secondary frens..v cheer each other coz sometimes v wil feel exhausted..college frens..v everyday wil think of our lunch ...10.30..v stil in lecture..ald ask others.."eh,later wat to eat ah?i feel hungry d"haha...thn v wil b crazy while scaning guy..laugh out as loud as v can..chit chat lot our personal thinking...wil go sing k after exam..i do miss tat....reali..tat wil b our memories ...4ever memories..my crazy 18 years old!!!


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tis my dear roommate~~she live wit me 4 one and a half year..(ofcourse v saw each other all yong sui things d..haha)

tats me and my roommate during outing..she is the one tat knw most of my secret..coz v both r LEO.wuhahahaha~

the gals in my gang~!tats wat v do...during boring lecture...haha

*dang dang*~~~my gang~~!!!!!

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i miss tis loh~!!!...i think v all remember tis..tis is the chemical tat place infront of us every chemistry lab class......the red colour is *busen burner*..perharps i didnt spell wrong~(picture frm yx..keke)

while burning the chemical~~NAOH +ZNCL?..thn wil hav white precipitate..NACL~wow..i miss chemistry weh~

i found tis...i remember i took tis..funny la tis 2 ppl...

and about hostel life..i think...raining heavily..bt thn i wit all my hostel fren stil go out tbr and eat..tat wil b a memorable day 4 me..coz v all get wet...coz one of the STUPID car...

tats me~~so terrible..i m stil on the way ..bt ald get wet..


suddenly sooo miss my college life....i miss u all...u all hear it????i wil look forward our IPOH TRIP~!

mum grumbling..coz i not yet bath..well i m not TAT disciplin i knw..coz i wan catch time to surt net..after working 4 whole day..actually after bath also can suft rite..ok..i m talking crap..i knw..haha..

unstabled life

seriously..i hate unstable life..i working in hsbc bank for 4 months.i ald go 3 section ..well,u can say tat can learn alot of things.yes,can learn new things.bt thn i was like ..being dump here and there..another way..u can call me relief staff.which section need ppl,thn i need to go there.


i feel scared..is like..suddenly..my boss will come tel me.."yein,tat side need u urgently,will have ppl guide you,u need to go there now"..i was like..what happened?..i reali dun like tis type of life..like dun knw when i wil b transfer..indeed like a fool.


2day morning...my boss came..she suddenly ask me gt a system password or not..i said no..thn she said "tat side need you to help them,they will help you to create a password"..ofcourse..i ask her..isit my place stil here or not...(coz tat is 2 different door)...lucky tat she said she dun wan me to go there..i wil b helping them using the system..at MY place...i m like.PHEW~~


coz if need to change place..tat wil b superrr complicated..i hav to move things..and i dun knw whether i have personal drawer..and i need to work with a gang of new ppls AGAIN..i m not staying there for long rite..so wat for i go tortured myself?they reali used temporary staff til the max..which is me...coz contract staff ..no union protect.

ok....unhappy things over~~*smile*..everything wil b alright..hehe.2moro wil b friday..yipee~~~


2day breakfast time.. as usual.. the canteen trolli jus hav nescafe and tea..nescafe wil make me headache one..so i bought tea..while i m drinking the tea..(actually ald finish half cup)..i feel abit gastric..SH*T..i tot i recover d..tea contain milk....so bye tea...u no longer b my favourite drinks..coz gastric is my enermy..


2day i took a very special bus to bk home.."bus wanita"..heard b4?i  saw tis 1st time...
reali..guys are not allow to ride on....then..when bus driver told  guys tat.."ladies only ,ladies only"..those guys was like..WAT?..thn they scan the whole bus..after tat..they giv a weird laugh..=.=




 once again..i miss exam..i reali wil 100000 % work hard..compare to last time..last time work hard but not enough...coz i knw how precious study is..


erm,2day i  totally wake up...come bk to reality..won think of U anymore..i m serious.no doubt..i m confident in controling myself...won let myself feel sad or dissapointed anymore.anyway thanks,i wil show u i m smarter thn U.

im sick with my life...

i m jus reach home..now is 9.05p.m..as usual i bk wit my mum 2day..and i didnt talk much to her..coz i m so tired..and headache..i m reali feel sick of my life..

everyday catch 6.45 a.m bus..if i miss it....i hav to wait 7.30 a.m bus..and hav to finish my work as fast as i can to catch bus also...people wil said..why don't u take ktm...yes,ktm is an alternative way ..bt thn after 6.30p.m..kl sentral there wil have aloottt ppl..and my dad nt free to fetch me bk ..


everyday facing computer..make me headache..ofcourse suft net is different..coz working need focus..if i did wrong,wil affect others ppl one.this called team work rite?2day i feel like time passed sooo slow..and hav a weird feeling...not hungry..not sleepy..wat also not...bt thn...feel like WANT TO BACK HOME..

my mum even told me wan to buy things,called me wait..and do my things 1st..my face changed..becomed so moody.my officemate wendy..she like know tat i m not happy to stay more a little while in office..she said"why?u hav to wait ur mum ah?she late again?"i ans her with reali moody face.."ya lo,she said wan to buy things,bt thn i m reali so tired ald"..se replied me with a smile said"nvm la,i also bk 7.00 p.m++ ma..together bk wit me lo"..reali thanks ...4 giving me ..a cheerful speech?haha..bt thn sry to her also..i m quite moody tat time..sometimes i m reali hard to control my face expression ..especially..very angry and very happy..


after i start work..i always questioned my mum the same thing...."mi,whn onli 2011 sep?i want start school as fast as possible!..i wan go russia as fast as possible..i dun wan to work~"and everytime..for sure..my mum wil ans me "very fast one..jus b patience..u now gt salary..isn 't very good?u can buy watever u like"...and i wil become very very serious and said .."i love study..i love exam..even want me to get 100 mark in exam..i also nvm..coz study is nth..compare to work"..i m not mean tat working is very hard..jus working is boring...and i m doing a job tat is not my field..and ofcourse..relationship can b a problem..always heard ppl complain tis one..and complain tat boss ..tis and tat..and i m jus 19 years old..i m still not ready yet to  jump into tis complicated society..

i don't like my life now~!is meaningless...


mon wait fri..thn wil b my lovely weekend..well..i enjoy lot..bt too bad..jus 2 days...
4 some ppl..ofcourse they enjoy working...they have family..after work..thn can play wit son or daughter..and dinner wit husband and wife..chit chat..and watch tv together..sounds sweet rite?bt..thn stil not my level yet...


i chose to become doctor..ofcourse not because of money....money..4 me ..enough 4 living...thn is ok ald.meaningfull life...tats wat i wan..v jus can live once in a life ..so i hope to do something ..tat is meaningfull ..and something tat i reali like..bt not feel boring..

i miss exam~! i miss lecture~!..exam exam exam...

well...u can say i m mad...coz i reali dun like to work..student life suit me the best!

 y u wan to hav same thinking,ambition..wit me..and  have a criteria tat i like the  most..