Grandpa..

5th december is a day tat i wil never ever 4get..this day is the grandpa tat i sayang the most...leave me..at 1st,i reali cant accept it..

after funeral things set up..i stay there for 2 nites..to accompany him.whn he alive he love to see me and my brother to visit him..teman him.he always tel me come early to teman him.at there 2 nites..i slept 2 hour  per day..u knw tat..i reali wish tat whn i wake up..somebody tel me tat it was jus a dream..jus a joke..tats not real..

no matter how hard i try to denied it..i cant change it..i screwed up..i cant hear my grandpa call me anymore.

i reali very sad..very very..i dun knw how to say..i jus hope everything is fake..i hope every saturday and sunday i stil can go accompany him.

but i glad tat sat nite i gt visit him..me and my brother chat alot wit him..he stil cal me sun come early..to accompany him..stil cal  me to buy something tat he likes 4 him..

sunday...afternoon he gone...whn received called..my mum shocked and she started to cry..and v rushed there..


whn i saw my grandpa..i knw he gone..i reali canot control my tears....how can i accept it??the nite b4 tis..he stil chit chat wit me..laugh happily wit me..feed him eat..and he even lectured my brother..

i knw i cant denied it anymore..my grandpa ald gone...i need to comfort my mum..so i cant cry too over..if not she wil feel more sad..and my brother also..so i cry in the room..cry and cry..even cry everytime i wake up..coz i cant change tis..tis is real..i can do nothing..


i reali dun wish tat my grandpa wil leave me..he is the one tat accompany me to grow up..but i think and think...i jus hope my grandpa wil happy..wil not suffer..and grandpa hav a kind heart..always help ppl..and wil not count he rugi or not..so i hope god wil take care tis kind ppl-my grandpa.

i teman him 2 nites..while he  s in coffin..i talk alot wit him...

and i m thankful to those ppl tat came my grandpa funeral..and pay their last respect..my uncle ,aunty ,cousin frens,and their officemate..usually ppl wil pantang....chinese wat....wat to do?i reali need to say thankyou..reali thankyou...and all the relatives came also..make my grandpa funeral meriah..i can feel tat  my grandpa wil feel happy tat every1 came to see him..

and i need to say thankyou to all my frens..yunxian,yi chyn,mun,nee,my office fren..afiqah,adam,rafiq...and others..

thankyou 4 u all msg..although jus take k ..those simple words..but tats reali more thn enough..thanks...

whn i bk office..ppl also speechless..they scare they wil say wrong things..so they like ask me how r u..r u ok...alhought i hav no mood,but i hav to smile..tats simple manners..

i dun wish tat my grandpa wil leave me..i hope he wil 4ever wit me..but i cant b selfish..he s suffering..so  i hope he wil happy..and not suffer..so i wil keep remind myself..my grandpa happy,thn i wil b happy~

i wrote a letter in my diary which is tis...

To Dearest grandpa(gong gong):
                                                i reali hope to knw where r u now..but i reali hav no idea..hope gong gong wil tel me u r fine now..and u live in heaven happily..i miss u so much...although i cant see u anymore..cant listen u call me "ah yan"...cant see ur cute smile..which is like micky mouse..but u do live in my heart 4 ever..no one can replace u..



                 you 're the one tat take care of me since i was young,
                 you're the one tat make milo for me every early morning b4 school,
                 you're the one tat prepare bread wit butter for me to bring school,
                 you're the one tat accompany me to wait bus sekolah every earlymorning,
                 you 're the one tat always b my driver,send me go and bk frm pianoclass,
                 you're the one tat always cal me take care(even the day b4 u leave),
                 you're the one tat always tahan me,although sometimes i talk wit u impatiently,
                 you're the one tat lecture me leng zai no use,important is hav gd personalities,
                 you 're the one tat always tel me nvm,dun count 2 much..so wil not hav enemy,
                 you're the one tat always refused to take my money,call me keep myself.
                 you're the one tat always tel me dun panic,steady and perform well in exam.

i love to tel u tat i m scared..b4 i go school exam,piano exam,and competition in primary school.coz i hope to get encourage words frm u.
                                            




u left alot of memories to me..i hav more memories on u and grandma..compare to my parents..tis is real one.coz u 2 are the one tat take care of me since i was young..

i wil help u to take care grandma,so dun worry about tat.i knw my studies not the best among ur grandsons and daughters.but i wil try my best to become the best.apply things tat u teach me in my life.hope u wil watch me in heaven....

i do promise u b4 tat i wil bcome a great doctor.and tis wil never ever change.

i knw gong gong sayang me alot..and ofcourse me too..even more thn tat...miss u always.
                                                                                                                                     from ur beloved
                                                                                                                                       granddaughter
                                                                                                                                              ah  yan